2.4.09

Lately I've been feeling distant. From everything. Especially my friends. Well most of them. I'm bored with their moral immaturity at most times. And other times I feel out of place. I'm good at the casual friendship deal. I'm good at it, but I don't like it, isn't that the irony of life? I want a best friend. Amelia's the closest thing I have to one... but she's already got a best friend (damn you Mara). Is it bad that I want that friendship to fall apart? Yeah it is and I would feel really bad, not that I've done anything to sabatoge it. Seriously. I want a new, awesome girl to move here, is that too much to ask for? Yeah I thought so too. I just can't wait to get out of this small town on to bigger things. But then when I get there I know I'll be wishing that I could go back, again with the irony. Always wanting to be somewhere else. I'm trying to enjoy it though, but I can't help but think about how college is so much better (according to EVERYONE!) Haha, and then I can get away from all the damn kids that "don't care about school" and have to ruin it for everyone else. Buttttttt that's another blog post.

Ohh and this song has been stuck in my head forever, which means all day today.