11.30.08

I did nothing today but think. Which is dangerous for me. I started thinking about my friends. Erin used to be my best friend but then we started drifting away about a month ago. I miss having a best friend. I mean I'd still like to be Erin's best friend, but sometimes our ideas clash. She's just been on the edge lately. But when I think back to this summer we had some of the best times. It was so much fun. But now it's just stressful. I always feel as though I'm trying to compete with someone for top spot. But I should stop that really. What does it matter weather someone likes me best it should just be if someone likes me! I shouldn't constantly compare myself to others in terms of friendship, just like I don't in looks or personality. I'm going to start anew tomorrow. And I hope things will go better :] Things have been going crappy lately. No more trying to impress people or out do anybody, just being my vibrant self. Yep that's what I will do and if people don't want to be my friend for that I'm not going to waste my time on them. Yep that's it. But I really do want a best friend, but I hope I'll find that kinda soon. But I'm going to be a happier person if I stop comparing myself to people. It's going to get better.

11.29.08

Today was really, really boring. I bet I can describe it to you without leaving anything out. Woke up - took a shower - mom told me we were going to a movie at 2:20 and to clean the basement kinda before Mish and Gene came over - kinda clean and went on computer - Mish and Gene show up - we go to movies (Four Christmases - went to Starbucks with Bev - came home dropped Mish with Gene - went to hallmark to get our ornaments - went to herbergers to get the tag off my jeans - went to Libby's - went to Erberts and Gerberts - came home watched Brothers and Sisters. That's it. Nothing else. I'm so bored I want to do something!!

11.28.08

Hmm I love Thanksgiving but I love that it's over too so that it's Christmas time! But not to move on too fast I must first list what I am thankful for: I am thankful for my family and how close we are, my friends (well most of the time), all the things I have that make my life easier, all the opertunities I have, my education, that I was born in a country where woman have equal oppertunities, and last but not least spellcheck. The food was awesome yesterday (thankful for that too) I brought lots of stuffing home. Yummmmy. That stuff is the best. No pun intended. Then today we went to cut down the Christmas tree in Perham. I love doing that every year. It was a great, we ate at the awesome resturaunte. And we bought some cute things at the little shops. And we saw SANTA!!

I love road trips so much, even if it's only like an hour in the car. Plus it gives the family a chance to talk. We talked lots about B's kinda crazy girl friend, I don't think that's going to last very much longer, but really who knows? Then when we all got home, Brandon had to work. Then later me and mom went out and went shopping and got most of the Christmas shopping out of the way. We got a bunch of gift cards and some clothes. I love Christmas!

11.26.08

Ahh it's finally the weekend!! I can sleep in tomorrow! But then again I want to get up and watch the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade... what a predicament. Anyway, today was pretty good. I didn't have to do much work in school we just watched And Then There Were None. It was in black in white. I realized that I like old movies. They're cool and vintage. I like that kinda stuff. Then after school I had my eye doctor's appointment. Contact's all set to go. Then we had to go to Piper's big 4th birthday bash. It was pretty fun I guess. Ya know for a 4 year olds birthday party. I sat by the birthday girl herself, even though I wasn't invited in the first place *tear*. Hah well I must go read my Teen Vouge now! Haha.

11.25.08

Today was a pretty grand day. Which is surprising because I had an orchestra concert tonight... Lunch was awesome today, we mixed Kendall's food as always. Ticking her off is just so much fun haha. And all the other classes were pretty good too. We played bingo in History, whoo!!!11!! History's my favorite. But uhg, the Jessica's are sosososo annoying. They're always talking and interrupting and I can't believe how disrespectful they are, I know I sound like an old lady, but it's true and they're just really over the top. So we got our bingo privileges taken away. But I won just before it was over so it was cool. Mmm grape suckers. Haha. Then after school I got my Ho Ho Holiday Mocha from CC. <3 That's what I live for. Aaaaaaand I got Chili's salsa today, my mom suggested it and like I would refuse? I came home hopped on msn and I decided that Kim should have the Narnia movie for Christmas!! (Haha I'm kidding of course, but I did tell her that I was giving it to her for Christmas) She asked if Prince Caspian was a "N----r movie". Yes seriously. Hahahahaha! She meant Narnia believe it or not. Then after that I went to my lovely orchestra concert. We actually played pretty awesome tonight. Plus I got to see the amazing Emma in first chair viola. She was wonderfullll. Mmmm. My mom is also telling everyone to come to my orchestra concerts now... wonderouss. Only two more days until Thanksgiving!

11.24.08

I love Mondays! Hah, no not really. I am always really tired on Mondays and today was no exception. It was a fine day though. I got called down to attendance during science, I knew it was coming. I had to talk to my counselor about the problems I've been having with Mrs. W. He suggested I write a letter, eh, might as well it's worth a try. But I just can't see her responding well to it. She just really makes me feel so worthless. It's aggravating. Uhg. But I guess even if it does end badly I can always drop at semester. Whatever. Other than that I guess the day was okay. Math class was a lot of fun. We were just really goofy. Haha we gave each other all "shorts" names. I was poppin shorts. It was pretty choice. The rest of the classes were normal as usual. In history we worked in groups on our worksheets. I worked with Lulu, Amy, and Erin. I just feel like Erin and I are slipping away from each other so much. I don't like it. She's just been so weird with me lately. Like whatever I do makes her upset. And she doesn't act that way towards anybody else. Hmmm. I hope that fixes itself haha. Yeah right. Well I should probably do something about that... I just don't know what to do. I've given it space, time, I've confronted it. Oh well. Only 4 more years until we graduate right? Aha I'm so negative.

11.23.08

Guess what?! Another pretty boring day, hah. Well it's a Sunday I didn't expect much. My mom, Sarah, and I went shopping today. I got some magazines and a book. Yeah I'm coool! Hah but I'm not buying too many clothes or anything like that because Christmas is coming up and I have to let people buy things for me. Oh so frustrating. Today was also Kim's birthday, I texted her and wished her a happy birthday just for the record. We [Sarah, Mom] also went to Huhot today, yummy. Love that place. Tonight has been booring though. I'm just reading my Agatha Christy book (And Then There Were None) not by choice though, trust me. There's very small print and everybody dies. Wow feel good book, right? Plus thanks to the tapes we listen to in English class all I can hear when I read it is a very loud British man talking to me. I hate reading for school. I'd rather read my books and come up with my own curriculum. But that's probably impossible because my books are the Gossip Girls as of right now, and I doubt that would be school approved. Vocab words: bong, Vogue, Bacardi. Yeah haha. Don't worry I'm not into that stuff. I just happen to find it fun to read about. Anyway I should stop writing for now because Agatha dearest is calling me!

11.22.08

Today was mostly uneventful. I made lefsa with the family (i.e. Jenny, Piper, Rylee, Bev, Sarah, and my mom). I was the unofficial lefsa turner, exciting job, I know. As bored as I may have gotten, I love spending time with my family, especially around the holidays. It makes me realize that in not too much time I will be a grown up with my own family, and my own kids. That makes me sad, but obviously excited at the same time. One day it will be me with the little kids trying to help out make the lefsa and me having to eat the ruined pieces. Kind of scary haha.